I did this to myself when I was 14 or 15 - would fuck my ass too. I wish I’d admitted to myself that i was a sissy faggot then - would have had so much more cock. As it was I didn’t suck my first cock until I was 30 or so and I’ve only recently realized that my orgasms are much more intense with either fantasizing about being a sissy bottom to a more dominant man or (much better) actually getting used like the bottom I was meant to be